haha. todae an kind but blur soul brought me something. = ) thanks for rushing here n there. thanks for thinkin about some sicko lyin in bed. thanks for giving me that surprise. thanks. from the bottom of my heart. though i didn get to finish it. i'm sorrrriiieee..


back to sch tml. dread it. absolutely hate it. but what can i do? one more mth! damn fast! start studying everyone. WARNING WARNING.

hungry. my stomach is rumbling but cant eat. duno wat to eat.. i'm sick of porridge. sick of tasteless stuff. damn it. anywae watever that i eat. will be out soon. wats the pt rite u say? i duno. at least my stomach was full for one min?

i got a bloody suay life. mother kenna robbed yest. f those two malays. i not prejudiced and ive never been a racist. so whats wrong with this world? i cant even have a good nite rest. my mother panicked voice woke me up. 3 policemen. a few passer bys. i keep wanting to go toilet. my life is in a mess. may. please quickly come. i cant wait liao. some pple i wanan see. some pple i dun. think i'll see the doc later again. the diarrhoea med is not working well. its been 4 days?

really. how suay can someones family get? ahh. nvm. life comes and i'll take whatever u throw at me. cannot take it then jus die lor. haha. fatalistic adeline is back.

recently, love my bed more n more. all i wanna do is lie on it. comforter. nice fluffly pillows. hide from the world. hide from proj. hide from frens. i guess the positive thing that comes out from this. is that i slimmed down. haha. i remember the auntie telling me," u need to lose 3kg then very nice liao." hmmm was that some sort of curse? nahhhh. but i still panda-ish!!!

ohhhh. theres another good thing. but thats another time. -unsure-

welll..heaven. i think my family have suffered enuff. move on k? or better still, stop making fun of us human beings. before i stop believing in u. becoz heaven is not cruel rite?

pats back! with lots of goodies. but she lost a luggage.. depressed for her. toking to her always makes me feel better. missed her loads over the past few daes. dun ever doubt ur importance in my life.

hi. i think it hurts.

its raining damn heavily now. supposed to meet grace do social psych. at least get it done and we have lesser things to rush over the next 2 daes. yup yup. damn stress. but i really cant be bothered with projs when i am feelin sick. i've got a presenation due on wed. and a proj due on wed. xq. i noe u are stress. n i can dare sae i somehow understand how u are feeling. i also have 3 proj due this coming week ya. i'm lucky that its not due on monday. yet. u are one healthy living thing. time we can manage. but health i cant control. well anyways, take care.

hate proj. always somehow manages to make me angry at one pt or another. things that i dun understand. pple that i dun understand. wanted to blog something yest. really felt like scolding the person here. but.. i think i'll jus let it rest. jus to say this, i did not fake my illness nor exaggerate it. i went to slp hoping that i could be better n enjoy celebrating but it turns out that i woke up with a fever. i dun think its my fault? but obviously. to some pple. u need to explain things to them. in details. if not. they dun seem to believe u. which makes life sad. yaah. thats what i feel. that pple think i am overdramatic bout me being sick. sad rite. what are frens for?

really happie to see py nick changed to pEiyi - choices. enjoyed! at least i hope shes referring to the outing on sat.

at least i not vomitting now. diarrhoea only. thanks esp to some pple who bothered to ask me how i am and to ask me to take care. listening to yanming's some videoclip russell peter thing. standup comedy. damn funnie. . haha i actually have mic in this lousy laptop. well, i think its at these times where u noe who ur frens are. at least u noe whos not selfcentred.

i really didn mean to be sick ok. not that it would ruin anyones life. but i feel guilty becoz somethings had to be cancelled. on a supposedly celebrative day. sad that i cant join in the fun. but haha. suay lah. weelll.. hopefully next time bah. anywae. my bdae coming soon liao! another excuse for us to enjoy. keke. i also want everyone to wear nice nice and take lots of pics! haha but i very simple. i wanan go to a place to have a good dinner ( i will choose the place). so basically, u all dun have to do much. haha. jus look ur best!

lookin forward to may. got a few celebrations planned. hope i get thru this sem well. jiayou everyone.

andy won! too bad i couldn watch the livescore. hai. i slping like 20 hours a dae. but waking up every 2-3 hours to vomit or go toilet. it really sucks. i feel damn weak. i think i need to get out n breathe in some fresh air.

hungrys. wat can i eat later? porridge? yucks. nice weather to slp.. i go bathe le. ciaos.

happy birthday WILLIE!!!!!!


hahahaa had fun yesterday? from all the drinking? keke. anywae. yeah. as gary sae its weird that we never tot of going clubbing at nites. hahaha. we too guai already. i mus before 12 reach home wan lor. haha. next stop. mos. may ar. i book u all le. SAF call gary to go also u mus ask them to shut up n wait. kekeke.

well my meeting is off. bleahs. so worrying leh my south asia. nobody interested to meet. how we gonan last min finish everything

hai. my sis sick. i see her sick. i duno wat to do. i feel so helpless. again. i am always feeling helpless. gotta go cook porridge.. pls let her be ok soon.

hmm something weird happen yesterdae. well. i guess i will find out only when the time comes. as the person said.

dont wanna try dont wanna try..

woo. skipped social psych lect. my sis screaming in the morn. totally ruined my mood. voice change. dumb weather.

haha yest watched date movie with ym and jianwen. weird. super duper weird. haha. but not bad lah. the movie is like damn lame. hmmm.. like the qing tian da sheng kind. but i think that monkey show more "touching". date movie combines many movies together. i guess when producers got nothing better to do. they jus come up with movies like tt huh.

hmm. i am stress and therefore i skip lesson. does it make sense to u? okok. i sort of mapped out my week already. wed going clubbing/pubbing! haha gary was like," the 4 of us never club tgther before!" willie was," oh ok." hahhaa. so u can see the difference. n pat. mushy eh. bth. MOS may. i need 2 mths to prepare. coz need to slim down, get the right clothes and i duno. haha. get into the mood? i cant wait for the hols man. REALLY.

oh. saw chong n his gf pic. his display pic on msn. hahaa told val and she replied," i cant see and i dun want to see." hahaahaha. bleahs. ok lah. shes got dimple. but i'm cuter. lalalaa.

hmmm my tuitee maths marks dropppp she told me jus passed. impossible rite. cannot. mus force her already.. she say she cant remember what i've taught her. so its drilling time. before i get sacked. hahaa.

pats leaving on wed nite. tsk tsk. i also want sia. hmmm.. py. paiseh lah. that grace lousy in acting. but i very honest de. hmm. we see how on sat.

andy is playing. n somebody summed up his possible opponents of the whole tournament. not looking good. lleyton hewitt qf. federer sf. nadal f? wat the hell. if he can get that far first. hai. andy pls prove something to the world. u are not the male kournikova. nonoono. i believe in u. we believe in u.

already i miss seeing smith on the pitch. man u won! chelsea lost! wahahahhahaa. i LAUGH at them. hopefully it happens more. to brighten up my life. schumi. hmm 7th. nvm. alot more races. melbourne next. 2 weeks later. i forgot how exciting it is to watch them race each other. n wheres cena! gosh. i feel very guy-ish. but then, i've always been kinda weird i guess. :)

ok. go read my "prejudice". skip lect mus make up for it. ciaos. miss ya all. take care. have a wonderful week ahead.

u're bringing on the heartbreak.. bringing on the heartache.. can u see?

yup. i'm definitely free-er todae. later do the social psych thingy. then start sending out surveys. after watching pearl harbour of coz. JOSH HARNETT. why should danny die? i dun understand. i know he "stole" his frens woman. but. he didn mean to. n she shouldnt have let him. n everything is jus so fatalistic about this show. karma. its true. what goes around comes around

hmm. another kor relationship gone. close to 4 years. hmmm. well, i guess everyone has to go thru heartbreaks. n i've come to understand that. nothing is definite. u might think that u love that person very much today. but who really knows about tml? next mth? next year? 10 years down the road? here is where marriage comes in i guess, it sorts of tell the person, yeah. at least i make the effort to promise u now that i will love u forever. cycnical? pessimistic? i duno. jeffrey asked,"what does marriage mean to u?" seriously, i haven tot that far. but it really doesn prove much. not in society nowadaes anyway. so what if ur husband leaves u? are u gonna wave the marriage certificate in his face? pathetic rite. throw the ring at his face? does it help?

well. can call me fatalistic if u want. i believe that somethings cant be changed.

saw chongs new frenster pic. well didn really bother to go n see his profile or other pics lah. glad to noe hes doing well.

hmmm. well. its back to projects again. then exams. jiayou everyone. -disappears-

hahaa. a sign that i am quite free. i am bloggin.

weelllll... wheres the genting trip!? arbo we jus settle on the dates k. 9,10,11 may. then give me the no. or something. then. i call. book. setttled rite. think its much easier that way. before the promotion gone.

ok. later i goin out. meet an idiot. then go fix my creative player. wonder how much i will have to pay. siannn. whens my creative pay coming................ -waiting for u... waitin for u.. -

FINALLY. deviance proj in. lab reports in. sorry for all the tension i have created. duno how many times i mus say sorry before i feel beter. anywae. yah. lab report. tan yee min. she really never tell us properly n stuff. its.grrrrrr. if i flunk. i gonna blame her. wahahhaaa.

plans change again. all that idiot fault. everything come up with sudden stuff then ruin my plan. now become afternoon. n the weather is damn hot. go down buy breakfast i come back perspire like siao le. hmmm i am complaining too much.

hahaa. reminds me of creative. welll. i quite enjoy n dun enjoy working there. i got to make frens with pat frens. so thats not bad. n a few pple very frenly. but i wasnt really very frenly with them. haha. duno how to say lah. got one jeffrey guy keep bullying me. n that "tammy" guy. but at least that helped me to relieve some boredom. 20 soon. sian.

sorry to all the pple i've neglected in the past few weeks that i've been busy. i'll try to put in more effort. after my exams k. gonna be damn bz until exams over. thanks for understanding.

i'm jus looking forward to nua-ing on my sofa. n watch andy.

oh. no more bbq. how ar. py bdae. hmmm.. think think think.

i loved u... i loved u all along...
hold on to me n never let me go....

woooo. been crazee. i dun even noe wat i was doing for the past week. its been jus stress n slp n brain malfunctioning. pms mood somemore. start shouting at my frrens. sorry everyone. didn mean to raise my voice. jus tt. gets frustrating when u have to explain like 4 times. n pple still dun get it. means. something wrong with my explanation or with my theory. n yet, i suggest taking it out. nobody wants. so i was really caught between screaming, " just delete my .... theory!" and " ok.. let me explain again..." so. sincerely sorry.

been trying to manage my time. not bad. at least the south asia presentation i noe wat i supposed to do. ppt. GOOD. social psych. do the survey questions first. haha pple. here we go, here we go again. u gotta do my surveys. bleahs.

mixed signals. i mus not be stupid. i must not be vulnerable. dun be naive. i'm weird. i think i can change anything n everything. HAHA.

yesh. tml hand in psych lab report. hand in deviance. its a damn big load off my chest. hmm andy gone again. 4th round. WHY. i really support him leh. i REALLY support him. hai. but i've been so busy. i didn even noe whens he playing. todae morning didn wake up in time also.

ohh. gay pub n club. not bad not bad. eye opener. yet. not that bad. ultra happie to meet bra! miss his craziness. but spent quite alot of money. bloody broke. really overspent this month. need to save up all again.

hmm genting ttrip. hmm.

10.40pm. backs from meeting with pat. saw philbert, sheldon, eric. haha. i so wish i can be like them now. jus play pool. but i cant. have to face facts. i wanna go thailand trip leh. its heaven lor. i want to go. no space. now i cant go. got space. grrrrrr.. sucks sucks.

i DUNO WAT is standard derivation. damn it. ok. i go do work liao. supposed to come up with conclusion and references. wish me lucks. all the best everyone.

my understanding of u diminishes each dae. n i'm not doing anything about it. u dun even listen to others. whatever that i say is trash? go on. do it ur way then. i've had enuff.

deviants. landscapes. deviants. landscapes.

according to that jc aka hughes- its suppposed to be my day tml. coz its the international women day. so. have fun celebrating u women out there.

worried. i duno anything bout the it show. except report at 1030. god bless me.

no.1 nothing wrong with my tagboard leh. i can tag.

no.2 . f my life.
oh. its depression mode time.
P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C.

no.3 i hate doing proj. i see the side of me that i hate. and i see the side of pple that i hate. all in all. i hate doing proj.

no.4 people dun even notice. dun even. but its good anywae. i dun see the pt.

words have been swimmin in my head lately. i dun wan them to be there. but when i look at the pple around me. the words start to swim faster somehow. then, i jus switch off. pple around me become invisible. whatever that they say seems to irritate me. no matter how positive or how funny they try to sound. i jus cant seem to connect with them. its weird. i'm gonna be sick.

if not for the projects. i would gone to meet pat? willie? anyone. yet here i am. hoping to start my proj soon. i dun wanna be blamed for not contributing. did i make a mistake in working for creative. but i need the money leh.

mus think for others adeline. yeah.

D+. pathetic. dun stress. we must finish by tml.

the horrible journey that lies ahead. I AM WAITING for U.

nothing much to blog actually. just some updates. deviance and changing is under way. although extremely worried for both projects. one scared no time. one scared out of pt. i think for both proj. we sort of all aim for As rite. but... i duno. i told py i think. if topic interesting. A+ topic not very interesting but analysis good A. so i think thats what i am stress about. how can i contribute to make this project an A proj.

hmm my kor broke up with his gf. feel bad. he msged me 5 plus to tok about his pain. but i was "dead". couldnt reply. now he mus be slping coz he was dead drunk. relationships. hah. i am contemplating jogging todae. seems good. damn hot. abit windy. wait till evening... FINALLY. i can give myself no more excuses. start reading bout my fengshui book first. hmmm. i haven got down to read PS i love u. theres a date due. 6 april. ok. after 31st. i am relatively stress free. so i will unwind by reading that book. whoa. i can jus imagine. i feel like pampering myself again. gosh. no money.

yest went shopping with py at tm for a while. saw 2 skirts which i liked. hmm both blue. n i think both around 40 bucks. i cant afford to buy. so well, skirts will always be on sale rite. sooo wait lor.

hmm tanjong pagar. was... ok. nothing much to observe actually. they are jus acting like normal couples. having their dinner. only some of the actions seemed not so manly. but thats all. shall see how wed we deal with the project. think all of us. quite wanna get over n done with this. tml meeting for changing. hmm hopefully we able to finish. at least one draft. go home type then submit a good proj...

excited about MINDS! excited about working! excited about ... haha. life is pretty boring eh. i wanan meet frens. go out. catch a movie. sing ktv. have nice food. go shoppin. but. all these stuff seems out of reach now. wait for py bdae then. weeeee... take care everyone!

so sick of love songs, so tired of tears.
so done with wishing that u are still here....


hmmmm.. almost another week hass passed. damnn fast rite. been spending money like crazy. i think its time for me to stop. n think properly. yeah. start saving.. for a better future. wahahahhaa. yup. creative is on. 9-12 march. yeap yeap. more money to earn. but that doesn mean i can cont to spend. save save. hmmm..

so far all projects have been good. think i should start sooner. so that wont stress at the last min. i mus start reading n write something bout the parts that i am supposed to do. saturday meeting for deviance. mondae meeting for changing landscapes. i need to finish changing landscapes. verrrrryyy the need.

haha research study i kenna with grace. she damn lucky. all 3 partners she noe de. whaha. peiyi jealous. wahha. bleahs. well.. wonder how lijia is doing now.

anywae did the interview with jeffrey. very happie. saw sally, kelvin, joanne, ... suan jeffrey liek siao. haha. coz he damn nice n cute. haha. so i mus "chen ji". but kenna threatened. so xin ku lor. i have to ren. becoz of the interview. i hope to meet them soon too. the interview wasnt awkward. he say my face slim down le! = )

hmm.. gawp meetin. not bad. blasted 50 bucks on jus playing boardgames. haha. of coz i was there like 1 hour. played some ship game then played boogle. hahaa. long time no do such stupid stuff. fun. haha. then went siglap. its tuesday! so we had gelare. wah. fattening day. pukes. yeahh.. diet plan diet plan. no.1 to cut down on food intake.

andy playing soon again liao. dun wanna think too far. willie suddenly sae i am nice. weird.
i'm SLEEPY. haha. ok. tml morning then do the deviance proj n read my changing landscapes. i wanna slp slp slp. studying with py tml nite.

oh.. been quite vulgar these few daes. so sorry to everyone around me. jus put up with it for a while k. when i not so stress.. the gentle n civilised me will be back. kkakaakaka. anywae its jus the f word rite. = )

hai. alot of events sia. hmm some songs to recommend. far away- nickelback ( the song that plays when u open my blog, if u even care. ), so sick - ne yo, dont wanna try - frankie jay. if u are the real sentimental kind. like oldies, get " toni braxton - another sad love song." i have been looking for it for AGES. finally i found it. i need to pluck eyebrows!

spent all ur time waiting... for that second chance....
in the arms of an angel....