my bloody day got worse

cant please my father
cant please him

i should jus go n die

FUCK
really hate her now.

arrghhh
im not a beggar ok

love it when he cooks for me!!!!

:))))))))))))))))))))))))))

one more month

a friend of mine posted:
爱情就是；谁先付出真心，谁就是输家.

his friend replied:

i wonder what it feels like to be in love for 10 yrs. and ack that u have been in love for 10 yrs. and not think that the only way to go is down a old boring road..

wah i was damn angry that day la
hai
i swopped with my colleague
about to leave at 5pm
cause i have tuition
i was damn unwilling to swop
have to wake up damn early
need to pay extra for my cab fare
and then i had to lose my specs on the cab

then suddenly he say, eh adeline i tot u work till 7pm
then i shoot him dagger eyes
hes always always like tt
then my boss say, eh u not working till 8pm ar?

so i ask my malay colleague cause she came in before me. i ask her to tell them who came la
then she say its me, then i dunno what happen
she say 'frankly speaking, she (adeline) was late but she was the early one'
then my boss stare at me

fuck,
ALL SHE HAD TO SAY WAS , yes she came 8am.
blooddy hell, she also late lor.
all started from my fucking colleague who had to ask if i work till 7pm
why the fuck i have such colleagues
who DEMAND my help but bloody only know how to push me to hell
then get one letter only, keep irritating me say i promote
found out from my boss they also got the lettter
so he say they wan to ze siao me only
but its been like 3 days alrady,
cannot get over it meh

bloody childish people
cant wait for my long weekend
dont feel like seeing their faces
make me damn irritated only

jay tmr! :DDDDD
very happy
my first time at concert with darling
hope no quarrels everything go smoothly

tgif.
i really cant wait for today to end
we're gonna celebrate val birthday and i wish everything will be better from the time i step out of this DAMN office.

:) good news!

got increment! :)
whehehe.
but aiyah. im the only one. so can imagine my office.
hais
dunno whether everything will become worse anot
thank u very much to my chairman, ED, and my manager! :)

but upset about other things.
grrrrrr

these few days quite down
cause of everything

my colleague is down
she thinks the whole world is against her
thinks my boss is giving her too much work
and is biased.
now she noes what i felt the other time. i had the whole thing for one year.
let someone else have it
but of course
being the nice girl i help

i jus need to vent
because is very simple tings
that she can jus do it on her own
but she request for my help, and both of us are wasting our time doing the simple thing when i actually have things to do
its not that i have nothing is jus that I DONT SAY

let me jus quote an example of ONe f-up attitude:

ive got meeting tmr
im doing my work
shes got something i duno what
but shes got classes so maybe need to leave soon
shes in charge of activities (jus like i was before)
but people come to register with her
she pts them to me
because a. shes doing her work, b. shes doing her SCH work
but remember everyone, IM ALSO DOING my work right
nvm, i entertain
i dont mind, because they are CHINESE.
mind u im the most non-racist person u can find
but thats really a stupid reason
so end up, im really doing all the work again, but because shes in charge she claims all the credit
and i listen to all the naggins and i solve all her problems
and she continues to happily type on her com.
while i handle all her shit
but hey, i fininsh my work already so i can blog now
am i OBLIGATED to help her? no.
but she TAKES it for granted, which i freaking hate to the freaking max
cause everyone is doing that to me
and she DARE to complain shes overloaded with work
i swear to god, if i kenna shot during staff meeting, dun blame me
it depends on my mood and the extent of the stab.

then comes my rs
which according to some people, might be its always on the rocks
but then im jus not the kind to like keep showing off
so i try recently because i realis maybe its not doing my bf justice
but there are certain problems that will always be stuck there
i wonder if its a character problem or a age problem

why do we need bf/gf if we already have friends
who are willing to accompany us and go through sad and happy times with us
issit we can count on the bf/gf to be there 24 hours? no.
issit we can count on the bf/gf to take care of us when we're sick? no.
issit because theres a listening ear? no.
because theres someone to love us?

which is really fuzzy imo.
because up till this very day, theres no universal definition of love.
its a feeeling thing
which differs from person to person

so how? communication lor
but some people dont like to comm
they like to do do do
then whether they doing it right or not, doesn matter
they jus do do do
then some peolpe like to talk talk talk,
but dont do
its really a tiring thing to maintain
not to even mention, some people attached, behave like single
totally no commitment.
not sensitive to partner's feelings
expect others to give all the time and they take
then some jus love to lie

listening to all these stories sometimes make me feel very happy
but he hit a nerve that night
by saying 'theres no guarantee'
theres really no guarantee, whos really sure about the future
but what about now
whats happening now
the things that we can do now
the effort that we can make now the commitment now

it is tiring, nobody said that commitments will be easy
friends also like tt
constantly fighting to get everyone to meet on the same day
for that 2-3 hours.
i spent much more time trying to get people to meet instead of the meeting itself
come to that day, some people mgiht not turn up, some people late
im not blaming anyone.
hey i also do such things...i know what it feeels like
but what im trying to say, to make a pt.
ya, it is the future.
if we cant even make something happen like how we want it in 2-3 weeks time,
how can we possibly make sure something happens in 2-3 yrs time?

so it only that there is effort, now that there is commitment.
now that at least we see something that can make us look forward to the future.

its jus some tots la
cause everytime i hear so many different views so jus wanna share my own
its jus that everyone has a limit to thinking FOR other people
everyone has a limit to how understanding we can be
some people are not understanding they are jus cannot be bothered and thats a totally differnt story because that attitude will show in other aspects

of course its always better to be the one who care less because u dont put in so much in it
so issit we're competing whos putting lesser than the other because we dont wan to get hurt?
its always those who are able to give out of their character who i think is truly good because they go the extra mile
in work also like tt.
im nt saying we shouldnt be contented but we should improve, and not always think we deserve less than what we deserve
and people around us should not give us any less
because thats when the cracks start to show...
im very demoralised