Being a pessimist, I start as a failure.
Almost everything I do, I willfail.
I would like to become an optimist, but then need to change mindset and need things to actually start being good arnd me.
Then again, I'm stupid plus mostly suayed.
So even if I'm an optimist.
I will still fail.Things are starting to crumble.
I'm starting to crumble..
Life is jus a slow and painful death.Full of misery, full of fakeness, full of misunderstandings, full of wars..
I wish to give my life to somebody who actually wishes to live longer
I bought insurance for myself alrrady. Hopefully can help my family in some way.

N I tot things were getting better.
I mus have been dreaming ..I still can't pls everyone, no matter how much I try.
I still get misunderstood.I still stand alone here
I still have absolutely nobody to turn to.
Still nothing The only people I can be real to, I can't be real.
I don't feel alive..

Help..I wanted to work in this sector to hrlp people.
I tot I was helping these people. So I can feel alive.
So I can believe life is not jus about dollars and cents. So I can believe that there are actually people who will appreciate ..So I can believe in something.
But everyone is so selfish
Everyone is so annoying
Everyone is jus out to get each other

I tot we were going to be together for a long time..
For real this time.
Maybe I'm jus not lucky to be loved by someone.
Maybe I need to take out my heart and freeze it.
Maybe I need to go for lessons to teach myself to love people.
Apparently what I know is ALL wrong
What I do is always wrong
What I never do is also wrong
What I say wrong
Never say also wrong
Maybe I'm jus wrong


Wrong to be here

HAhaHaha im not an avid fan of xiaxue.

but i mus say i absolutely like this post of hers

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2010/07/how-to-not-cheat.html

die.
i hate working on sats.
and my sat is suddenly packed.
and i need SLEEP.
suddenly jus feeeling like nua-ing at home -_-

i finally booked my hotel!!!!

whahahahaaa.. HONGKONG here i comee!!
now im finally feeling the excitement

god. i needd to find $$$

i remember last yr hk trip
started off as a disaster
had to choose who to go, then mus buy the souvenir
quarrelled like crazy
and wanted to visit some places didnt get to visit
lost my wallet.
got myself alittle drunk
the memory of last yr kills me
almost wish i had forgotten it.
but i think it will forever stay with me
its like a deep deep cut, which left a scar that maybe needs a long time to heal

but then,
this time im going again!
:)

will take ALOT ALOT of pics this time..
oh ya some pics to upload. haha jay chou concert. heheheheee i went quite crazy. although not as crazy as i would have liked to be.

i need to find some crazy people to go wild and screeaaaamm with.
really need to relax. and stop being involved in all this politcs and craziness

but all smiles recently. i hope the phase is over. although there will surely be a next phase. but its alright.

missed the hdb queue. but yes, another one. maybe should look for dbss. see how.. $$ is another issue, cause of CPF also.
headache headache


where are my crazy friends!!!! i need crazy friends.
mj tmr... long time no see GAWP. all willie's fault hahaa,i noe willie will see this and scold me.
but i jus like blaming him :D

i suddenly have the urge to drink...hmmmm

i hope the next time i call gpals to go anywhere or a holiday, it wouldn be so difficult
i know we're drifting.
i jus hope we can find the time/effort/$$/heart to actually do something about it.
i really think we should organise a getaway or jus everyone take leave on one day, to jus bond.

im losing all my friends :(

hais.

so tired and sian.