i didnt want to post something so soon, coz no pictures! ive resorted to someting uncreative like posting youtube stuff so as to have something multimedia-ish on my blog. bleaahhhs. dun care. todae is words. unless u wana pics of my ugly face (ugly eyebrows, ugly eyecircles, ugly eyebags, chapped lips, need i sae more!?) and my beloved papers?

i'm so excited that darling is goonna POP in just 6 more days! i sound like he is already ord-ing. but wth. since we both have 'holidaes' together, its jus great. been having random tots.

do u pple think alot or do reflections? i think i'm someone who does alot of that, sensitive, paranoid, whatever u sae man.. i seem to have this habit of recapping my whole dae or some troubles that i have before i go to slp. i think when i'm bathing, i think when i'm in the bus, mrt, nothing to do, i'll just think. like when theres a debate in class, some pts pr some doubts that i haf, i'll still be thinking bout it at nite! then i'll go, "ya, should have argued this way.."

the past few wweeks have been quite eventful for me (my brain actually). many things to think about. one of my fren's nick struck me too: Ask not what i can do for you, ask what you can do for me. but me, someone who lacks initiative, i actually constantly remind myself: ask not what others can do for me, but what i can do for others. i try my very best when i self-reflect to take note of certain things which i should have done/said better. i'm not a perfectionist, but i jus want to strive to be better.

being someone who lacks initiative has always been a weakness of mine. major. ive lost frens coz of that and felt and still feel isolated becos of that too. i dun tok on the fone regularly,i dun even call my frens unless i see the pt , just ask pat ( my 8-year old best fren). i noe what u gonna say, then start calling la! but its difficult, coz its just not me! n my close frens, knowing that, they have to take the initiative to call me ( i love u all for this) and i dun even get calls most of the time becus pple think adeline is jus not a fone-person. thefore, ive decided to accept the fact, that its difficult for me to start, its not like i dun care a damn bout my frens lives. i do it tru other means. msn,sms, ive never rejected my fren calls to go out unless something major or dates clash.

its difficult for me to change becoz i just feel so unnatural, like purposely. n its weird when the conversations jus dont click. n my life jus too boring i guess. mayb i just dun wan to put myself in that situation with my fren. its not like i'm antisocial and cant converse, i can easily tok for hours. but, i cant start it.

so thanks eveyrone for putting up with this weakness of mine, i'll try my best to make it up in other ways. and maybe call ya all sometimes. :) in the meanwhile everyone just take care and continue to tahan me ya.

!!! AHHAHAH!. i am soO SOosoo happi! i cant imagine. the end of next week. END OF EXAMS. damn it. i must plan plan how to enjoy my holidaes. SHOPPING! CHALET! BEACH! NOVELS! TV! MOVIES! BEAUTIFY! EXERCISE! LOVE!

anywae, i am tutorin the 2 gers not becos of money only kies? they need it, esp nadine, whos abit notti but guai. so she needs abit more time. n her foundation is weaker than xinyi. i make myself sound so materialistic sometimes i even believe myself.

omg. another rain song. with sad english subs. enjoy! not to mention the BEAUTIFUL CAR. and his abs. WOOT!

Rain - In My Bed MV (english translation)


anywae, been sick for the past one week or so. jus finished my second paper. i hope god pities me. thanks everyone for your concern n ur good luck wishes.
i cant wait for 8th man! updating my wishlist, hoping that my $280 bucks can help me do many things.

ok. i'm no justin timberlake fan. but after watching this mv, i have to sae WHOA. his dance moves blew me off. its coolllll. ignore the ger who is doing weird stuff.
just watch him dance.

Justin Timberlake - My Love [No Intro Version]

haha bored ger is here again. actually am escaping from reading, notes-writing, whatever that reminds me of studying. :) so i browsed thru 'my pictures' folder and found some cute pics that ive accquired so far. i saw alot of my soft-rebonded hair pics.

i cant imagine myself with straight-hair. that good or bad?

so shall show u all somemore pics.



omg. i love this dog. super duper whooper cute. hahahaa. its liek it has no eyes. haha.








last but not least, it has to be andy.
my andy is so ungentleman. aha. n look at that damn kournikova's legs.

hmm. out of boredom, i created a 'places to go' on my wishlist. is it my imagination but the list seems to be getting LONGerrr? infinite wants i have ( guess that only makes me human eh?) of coz, i wish to go to many many many more places, but these are the countries,cities that i hope to visit when i have the money. i'll be damn satisfied when i strike them off one by one. WHAHAHA.

i was watching house yest ( YESH, back to my tv days, how i miss them..), n i was confused. i tot i was watching CSI. most prob becuz the beginning went like this
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lady bathing, turns off the shower, puts on her robe and steps on a weighing scale ( says aloud: 106 pounds). suddenly, man wearin a mask grabs her from behind, drags her to a bedroom and throws her onto the bed. i'm like. WTH? am i at the correct #?
struggle struggle, she manages to throw him off, starts to run off, when the man starts to choke.
i think: WHAHAHAHAA. lousy rapist. lose to woman.
incredulously, the woman turns backs, and asked if the man was ok! i fainted
okies. so this is where the House comes in ( House is a doc btw).
the woman asks again, " HONEY, are you ok?"
damn. pple and their sex fantasies. real misleading.


well, jus in case ure interested, theres a twist that somehow the wife is being accused of poisoning her husband with heavy metals (gold). i didnt really get the ending, because i was distracted by din's arrival. i'll catch the repeat todae.

hoho. disappeared for another short while.

well, first of all, met liting for dinner at marina sq. was great! got to chit chat abit n i think its good, considering we dun really meet together like tt. i mean, we've known each other since pri sch, its really amazing that we are only hanging out now. ahha.

hmm next up, watched
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not bad, if ure looking for plotty movies. no. dun watch this. haha. this is for the effects n the coolness. haha its basically quite a dumb show. well. the lead actor is cute! keke. after tt was pizza hut, hehe. long long time no eat, so when yong liang suggested, well, no harm done. tot i wouldnt be able to eat gelare buttttt, shared with my darling (tok about diet.. tsk) well, at least i bought adam's present! hehe. nadine's next. n darling bought me royce choc! i cant remember wat pat bought and rachel bought, but qi that time let us try the champagne. quite nice. hehe. n i have it! yesh. motivation to studee.

well, as if yest wasnt sinful enuff. i ate delifrance for dinner todae... not that bad, but there was the dessert.


- fondant de chocolat chaud -

suprisingly, i find it quite nice. original price:$6.95. but since my dad n i ordered a meal, it was counted as an addon for only 2 bucks. so i tried it. well, not choc lovers, pls stay away from this. i warn u. haha i having abit of sore throat now.

cant believe its the middle of the week already. hes back in camp, another 10 daes before i see him. so i shall jus mug in the meantime. n ya. 10 daes for me to mug. gosh. tons of readings waiting for me.

andy's been playing not bad. hope he gets into the finals if not the semis!

alright, 2 daes of enjoyment, back to serious biz.

hoho! went to watch
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at first i tot it wwas another 'take the lead' but this IS different. haha. plot seems to be around the same. but i duno. its the dancing and the energy, n abit of the love, frenship kinda thing i guess. haha



omg!! i skipped sch on fridae ( no big deal rite?) ya. i agree. but the proob is. i actually slept from 8pm to 7am!. woots. its been a damn long time since i slept like a pig. but i had a headache when i woke up. hahaa

well, finally met my laopo for supper. haha. but well, the grp abit small yest. nvm. plenty of chances to meet. :) eat eat eat. on the way to be a pig ( let me be in denial..)

haha. bugging my sis to do blogskin for me. hehe. shes in ARTS!. omg. a member of my family. studying ART. as in u noe. THE art! drawing? painting? HAHAHHA. i cant believe it. shes not my sis man. as far as i noe, my family got no artsy fartsy watever.

anywae, ya. one of my pri 5 kid STILL fail her maths. :( i was expecting moderate pass. her mum seem abit worried. but. well. nadine ( the kid) consoled me... she sae improved from her 17/100 last year. to 47 /100. hahaha. i'll do my very very best. i wanna work this holidae lehs. i need money!

went shopping again. haha. tm happened to be having its 11th anniversary. so bought a pair of shorts. tried a dress! but the material make me look fat. but ive got a inkling as to what dress i want. i'll search for it. n blog. keke. next time. cannnot tempt myself yet. :)

missing my frens. super for all the lack of initiative and all the rejections.

take care everyone..

cute hor? these japanese are so bloody innnovative. http://web-japan.org/trends/business/bus061110.html#

hmm my poor darling sick, in hospital. thank goodness okies le. act hero la u. :) hopefully i finish my project fast fast n of coz with some quality then i can go see u more often kies?

anyway, my sis is making blogskins now! i'm so prrrrooouddd of her. my darling too. hehe. jolene btw, definitely nOt geraldine. the both of us have ZERO, kosong creativity. shes gotten a few comments, quite positive and avg rating of 4 out of 5 stars. keke. go check it out. i contributed some ideas kies. kekeke. (maybe i do have some creativity)

http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=117365&action=Preview

not bad for a first skin ya?

ya. welll, am rushing. n somehow L msn-ed me againn. something happened between he n J. apparently, he thinks J blocked him. so he asked me if J is online. then ask what happened? how come he cant see her. hmm. i did. i was curious too. then when i asked J she said her msn something wrong todae. well well. nobody would believe her. coz she logged off and logged on again. straight after replying me that. n somehow, miraculously he was able to see her online again! gosh. i hope this doesn carry on anymore. i really dun wan to be involved.

well, i realised ive got alot of commitments. good, no good?

somethings aint feeling right.

haha. i cried man. watch this.

n i received this msg in the same dae: this is LOVE. There was a Blind girl who used to hate everyone except her Boyfriend. She always used to say that " I'll marry you if i could see!" Suddenly one day someone donated eyes to her and then when she saw her Boyfried she was completely astonished coz, he was also blind!.. Her Boyfriend then asked," WILL u marry me now?" the gil simply refused. her boyfren smiled and said,"just take care of my eyes."

n the video. this is way sadder man i assure u.

gosh, i'm becoming regular once again. hahahaa. not really la. jus some complaints here n there and. well. its all words, so pardon me. no fotos to whore about n certain nothin much about myself to whore. except panda eyes..

well my darling is going to field camp tml. jus ended a really good conversation. the one where normally pple would quarrel but jus not us. woot. *beams* at least we were able to tok aboout emotions. n i think thats impt. ive been witholding but todae, i felt like i jus had to sae it. if not very xin ku. immature, chldish, dependent. watever u wanna sae me. i jus somehow cant stand it. oh nvm. it will pass.

grrr. tok about gender prooject now. gossip. hehe. theres this guy. L in my project grp. who was super paranoid about how much marks we will give him for his contribution. i tried to understand his pt of view becuz he got backstabbed before. BUT, hes too overboard. the ger (J) emailed the teacher the contribution form already. then he keep pestering her to tell 'us' what % she gave each of us. NOW. i sae 'us' becoz i didnt felt the need to noe. i mean. i bloodily did work n i deserve at least an equal contribution if not more. but he, i get the feeling that he scared we backstab him so he show us maciam he do alot of things. ya. anywae he kept demanding that we all give each other = %.
then ASSIGNED ME to do for everyone then we jus sign on it as a form of agreement. come on la. really man. wth. sec sch or wat. where got pple like tt. no.1 its damn obvious, defeat the purpose. n what have u got to be scared of. J at first said that no need worry she gave everyone same. i told him tt dun worry, even if 1% diff wun matter much. when J admitted that (after he FORCED her) some got 26% some got 24%, he was damn sarcastic. he said,"jus now u were so honest la, said u gave everyone = haha" damn it. ive never seen a more paranoid guy.
well, L asked me if i noe J well. n one dae he jus promptly announced that i was to be his soci parrtner and this other ger. n he pte msn me that J eng wasnt good and he wanted to redo her part. this is bad. i feel like his accomplice. becoz i noe all this things but i dun wan badmouth him in front of her. [ guys are ok, u all are jus audience :)] ya. becoz theres already tension between them. n he haolianed to me that he will buy 21 presents for his gf 21 bdae. if not he say, i would say so sweet! now its jus haolianed. grr.

omg. then hor, in the mrt a few nites ago. theres this guy who was drunk. i didnt realise until he seemed 'unstable' literally. he was swaying abit. at first i tot mrt move then he's a unbalanced guy (could be wat, how i noe!?) .. after tt i realised mrt stop also he was swaying about. so i turned up to look at him ( i was sitting hehe), then i smelled the beer. gosh. he was standing in front of me. so i gave him a few 'diao' llook. he kept swaying about and hitting the guy behind him. i was so worried he wil fall on me lor. wah liao. remember to warn me, not to be drunk or not to be a nusiance when i'm drunk k. jus take cab home or rather puke finish then cab home.

hmm an old man help me close window!!! hahahaa. its so embarrassing. happened last week. but ive been too depressed to tok about it. i was taking 95 home then it started drizzling. didnt really affect me much, but model citizen, ahem, dun wan seats wet so the other passengers can sit. i tried to close the windown once, cant. then few mins later, close, still cannot. i was irritated with the guy in front though, his side, the rain was like splashing in. n he didnt even care!! so inconsiderate. now the uncles behind me mus have seen all my chou shi. so the thrid time i tried, stlll cant!! then i saw a hand reach out and close for me. whoopps. i jus turn abit and sae 'xiexie'. argh. conclusion, i am a weak woman!!! hate.

alright. i cant remember much le. been too bogged down by worries n fat. hais. studyin tml nite~~ wish me lucks. i needa eat med and slp. 7 days. woot.

i dont know much,
but i know i love u,
and that may be all i need to know.

i'm pathetic. i'm beginning to hate myself. i cant believe i'm so affected. supposed to be happie dae happie nite. coz one project down! still 3 more to go. but at least i feel a large stone lifted...

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then i had to behave like a kid.

adeline, you need to be more mature, dont be so selfish..

okies. i'm tired. jus took the yellow medi. time to slp. tml got project meeting. gosh. hatehatehate myself..

:(((((

gosh, i might die due to stress. 3 projects and a presentation? and i'm left with about 8 daes. how am i going to pull this off? and not to mention, there are tutorials and lectures to go to.. ya. so why i got time to blog? i duon. i feel like scolding something.

i'm in a horrible mood. i'm sorry if i sound snappy or extra blunt. i mean, i might say things that i wouldn bother to be sensitive about. so sorrie first. its jjus a few more weeks. bear with me ehs. to make everyhting worse, i'm down with flu and cough. grrr. so i'm extra pissy.

anywae. ya. my frenchie is gone. i've replaced it with the oh so ugly transparent nail polish. i'm back from facial and i spent 150bucks. i figure. since it the last 3 times i gonna be there. i might as well spend rite. okies. i need to start saving. gosh.

last tuition todae. for adam. i think his parents think i bad influence. last saturdae, i duno what gotten oveer me. i said things like, "wah lao, shit!" in front of a pri 2 kid. in front of his family. damn jenga. it made me excited. i duno. felt like i was playing with a fren. thats not very good. anywae. he said things that hurt me. he said i acted like i was the queen. HALLOooo.? whos acting like his king? but he said i always late. which is true true true. i jus cant seem to click with the "17". then i'm alwasy rushing here n theree. so. todae last tuition. ive decided to be early. and he said i never buy tings give him. i did lor! but just that i wanted to give. n he makes me so pek chek. i think wth, give for wat. like rewarding him for being notti. i duno. kids take pple for granted easily i think.. so well.. we shall see la. i'm curious about his results. i'm curious about all my kids results. i feel close yet not so close to them. strange.

OMG. my purpose of blogging is alsso to announce that RAIN's $888 tickets are sold out!!!! WTF!? who are the siao kias. they really mad. i am so jealous that they are mad. :( boohoo. i wanna go the next one!!! plsplsplspls. come one more time.. i shall put in my wishlist. the concerts i wanna go to. hiak hiak.

BLOOODY COOL



i gonna be super broke. no income le. lucky the highest paid still wans me to continue. but its still nto enunff. holidaes cooming. i need money to spend!!!

okies. i think i gonna go conc on my gender liaos. alot of tings to complain. i complain next post.