alot of things on my mind lately.

well, for one. back to the topic of lack of initiative. i'm trying to correct. that would be like my new year resolution. dun expect a dramatic change though. haha.

well another thing. is this word 'whore'.
it hurts when u see this word being used in someone's description of u.. even if it's used in an analogy
memories came back as i read and read. not much written. but analytical enough i guess.
'was i really like tt?', 'did i really do this?' seriously, i duno. the person might have misinterpret me. or i could have been, maybe to a certain extent, a whore.
i'm not proud to be saying this, jus that i feel hurt, and i want to be reminded of this dae. of this lesson i guess.

need a while to get over this..

well, as promised. video clip.




haha sorrie. my hands abit sucky. i was toking to jolene. so move abit. hmmm.. click the stop button first so u can listen to the concert. hmm and u would have heard my 'omg' at the end. haha coz it 'pi and po' a few times.

hopefully i can study and go netball later. exercise! but i admit i am damn old already. my bones and muscles are STILL aching from fridae's session. tsk.

projects, sch. i hate them. grrr..
pics next time.

sorrie for being soooo lag. been feeling lousy lately. so real lazee to blog. i dun even feel like coming online. jus wanna laze on my couch. slp. study even. gosh.

hibernation period hopefully over. coz during this period, i've missed out alot about my frens. sorrie for not being there for u all when and if u all needed me. i cant get used to the sch timetable yet. even though i come home 'early'. i'm tired already. its like 7am everyday, and i just feel tired by the time i reach home.

so while getting adapted, i missed u ppple, my frens, but i jus didnt want to socialise. and trust me, u wouldnt like me in my bad mood. its real bad. well, some pics and a video!

i'll try to blog more. coz i dun wan one post to be tooooo long. so i'll chop my stuff up.

first up, East View Sec (my darling sis jolene sch) military band's concert!
@ Toa Payoh Auditorium.







natasha (one of my tuitees) on the left!




overall, the concert was not bad. i'll post a clip next post! haha there were some, blips, but ok la. haha.

then, finally, netball! whooo! although it rained alittle. but we enjoyed! sad thing is from the looks of it, the court seems to be taken every nite. long time no touch the netball, feel it, throw it. n i haven exercised for the longest time. looking forward to the next session!

have some pretty sad news as well. one of my frens is no longer with us. n though shes not really very close to me. it still came as a shock. n i never tot it will happen. i'm not very good with deaths. when something like tt happens, i'm at a loss to help and to comfort pple i think. coz, whats there to say? may sound mean, but i really dunno how to offer. i'll definitely be there if i can, i must and i should. but ive been known to be the 'analytical' one. not the person to find when u have some emotions and need to let out. maybe thats good, maybe thats bad. but i promise to do watever i can.

hmm well, projects are piling up. more and more things to read. i'll try to post more, and ive got a very cute girl tuitee. but naughty naughty. if i start talking like pri 2 kid sometimes, dun blame me. my tuitees are having an effect on me. tsk.

welll, andy lost to federer in the semis. i applaud andy for getting so far. *claps* but fed was playing damn good. so andy lost deservedly (hey, i can be impartial too). man utd lost to arsenal, but won portsmouth in FA cup. i guess shit happens. :) Singapore is in the final of the Asean Championship! ole ole ole ole~~ tiger is back! i cant wait for F1 to start again! maria sharapova lost in the final of Aus open!

okies. thats all for sports updates. till next time.

i still got somemore to post, but maybe tml or wat bah. take care pple.

AH forgot tell u pple that i watched the Love at the Aegean Sea ( Qing Ding Ai Qing Hai). damn damn sad. hate the ending. the show might be abit draggy. but nevertheless, love it!











anywaes andy is playing welll. hes playing against marat safin next. WOW. i love both of them! but andy more. haha









andy, marat, blake







now, marat is really super cute. show u all more pics....









damn cute hor this boy!

thats all bah. hahaa. jus showing off my pics

sorrie la. bleahs. missed netball! todae at my sch forum got someone shooting lor. wah. really miss the feel of the ball.... next fridae!

haha. super lagging post. but jus summarise my life for the past week(s)?

haha. my blog and life call ups and downs really apt.

early in the morning, i received a knock on my door. "huh....?" while sleepily opening my door...

my dad thrust my wallet in front of me. (gasps! double gasps!) but seriously i was damn tired. to behave excitedly. but i am!!!! oMG!!!! heaven really loves me sometimes.

just yest nite, i waas telling jing that i have no fate with pierre cardin wallets. twice, he gave me as a birthday and xmas present, twice i lost it. n we decided that we should go against fate, he shall keep giving me pierre cardin wallets. aahaha i said jus buy 100 wallets. let me slowly lose it. then WOW. it came back. :) really would like to thank the kind soul for returning my wallet. THOUGH, it took the person 10 days to return me. hmmm.... could it be due to the fact i cancelled all my stuff already?

well, lucks with me todae i guess. and hopefully most (see i not greedy) MOST, of the 358 days to come. :)

willie say i changed! without any reason. haha he bears grudges and is forever bullying me. always say i act cute. but hes still one of my most treasured fren. :) just like pat. run around with me. even want to see my fats, jio me go swimming. tsk. how many of u are ever so willing to see my fats and listen to me during my shitty mood swings? gary has promised me we will still scream together when we take rollercoasters. despite jumping a few times already.

thanks everyone for being concerned with my moodiness. thanks for sharing, reading, accompanying me with my ups and downs. thanks darling, gpals, gawp, for being kaypoh in my life and letting me kaypoh in urs.

2007. i promise to be a better fren.

pics up next post. my PIMPLE is still there! arghhh!

everyone. all gers pls visit my dearest pat blog. nothingeverreallychanges.blogspot.com

shit. woke up at 11am feeling shit. called sharon (adam's mum). i'm feeling demoralised. in a month. ive lost my wallet twice and lost 2 students. there mus be other nonsense, but i was quite determined to make this year a good one. and my determination has began to falter. -_-

with the bidding of the modules. and the start of the new term. nothing seems bright for me. suffering from insomnia.

argh!

below is wat i wrote in the morning.

wel well well, its 3am now and i cant get to slp. i bidded py goodbye on msn at 1+ lor.. so here i am blogging. no pics todae coz i have an awful pimple. :)

well well well. new year eve went to my grandma's place. long long time never go.. n my auntie cooked crabs! well, sad thing is that i dun really eat seafood.. then, celebrated new year with darling and frens. by the time we met at raffles place (11pm) it was already crowded with pple. so we sat at starbucks and waited for the much anticipated fireworks display. hmm at least i could watch the fireworks. n thank goodness jing got bike. the traffic was crazee. my sis (geraldine) more funnie. i told her already, go town means squeezing with banglas she still insist. so she jus left the house about 2 hours later she called me. to inform me that its f-ing crowded and its drizzling in town. cant help but luff. but being my good old sis she assured me that if i had second tots i could always head back home and enjoy wine with her. (which i did, after counting down, at 3am?)

then met liting! haha. i like this once in a while meeting thing. tis going not bad coz at least we get to see each other more than jus during chinese new year. :) n i can gossip! i like!

but the best thing about this week is when i received this msg, " And dun worry about ur wallet.anything that u nida replace, i pei u go get it done on wkdays k?"so nice. bu kui shi my best fren. and that really cheered me up. coz everytime after i lose my wallet, when i have to report loss and replace those cards, i always feel sadder knowing that i'm doin that alone. i think coz it reminds me of my dumbness.so thanks alot pat. haha. of coz we pigged out abit at her place. no swimming cuz of the rain. tsk. n i felt like an idiot when i reached white sands. really changed quite abit.

can't slp. thinking about my modules and the coming sem. and the recent suay-ness. my longest tuitee (1.5 years) dun wan tuition anymore. so abit down. emotionally attached and money factor. hais. tot i could teach her til PSLE and feel proud that she achieved good results. guess not my luck.

all the recent events swimming in my head.. so awake yet nothing i can do. hais. i'll try to get back to slp bahs.