hmm. everyone likes to compare. compare results, compare money, compare boyfriends, compare life. we either feel better or worse after comparing. its something that we cant avoid. but ive learnt something about making comparisons.

its never enough. nobody is ever good enough.

uve got A, someone will get A+. uve got a rich bf, someone will have a richer one.
so what if u are the one who is better off? do u feel happie that u noe someone who is worse off than u?

i admit, when i hear pple getting better grades than me, bf sweeter than my darling, i'll be envious of them. jealous even. but this jus makes me sad. and why should i be? i was perfectly contented with my life till i made that particular comparison.

in the midst of studying for my sickening geog test tml, i think of such nonsense. haha i just wanna share with my close frens some of my tots. i feel better and like ive achieved something if someone heed my advice and feels better too.

pple who we love, we cherish and appreciate. but no doubt, they will be the ones we expect most out of. its a paradox. we want them to prove to us that they are worthy of our love and that they truly are the best.

ive looked back, and seen my childishness in my endless wants. made pple i love upset. i'm selfish, and i believe i am entitled to (just like u are), but we should be aware of our limits. when's the limit? when pple who u love are struggling to catch up with ur limitless wants. when u see ur loved ones upset that they cant give u something you want. esp when u know they have tried their best, but u just want more.

when u feel u are entitled and u should have this and that, pls think carefully my dear frens, do u deserve it?

argh. jus some random tots, coz of things happening lately.
time to slp.

i love u dear. can never say enough no matter how many times i say it. :)

tonight i find myself kneeling by the bed to pray,
i havent done this in a long time,
so i dunno what to say.
but lord,i feel so small sometimes,
in this big old place,
yeah i know theres more impt things,
but dont forget to remember me..

hehe. ok liao. i have to be more optimistic. n stop making unnecessary complains. so i'm in the mood to post pics! i did some act cute stuff to my pics.. hahaa.

Vday @ the Beach Hut @ East Coast.




calamari!




haha. we 'torchlight' our food. keke. i had grilled fish (nice!)




darling had lamb chops! (damn hard, dun try it unless u have POWER teeth)



addin to my collection of soft-toys...



hmm watched 2 movies recently,

1. the protege. cool. hahaa learnt abit about drugs. some jokes, great cast. some sadness.. plot... can bahs. there are movies with plots nowadaes. :) poor andy lau though..

2. ghost rider. ok-ok. see some cool stunts, not very handsome actor, but i think eva mendez pretty. plot is some monster saving the world. some effects and jokes, but overall so-so only.

celebrated my grandma bdae over the new year too! hehe. another cousin coming to Nus. mechanical engrg. darling couldnt join us coz of some superstition thing. -.-
lazee to post grandma pics. haha. haven resize and everything yet. upload pics the next post.

damn it. half my hols gone. this morn went for tution (late le), to find my tuitee STILL slping. called the mum and tuition cancelled. well, ive been wantin to quit this. i jus hang on a while more i guess. its either i quit or they sack me. ive seriously no confidence in pulling up his grades much higher. next week onwards is @ night le. i shall see bah.

tml chinatown interview. and project meeting AHHH!! i cant even slack at home. monday test. gosh. i want netball!

n the pessimistic ger upsets her bf again..

hows everyone?

been a busy week for me... feeling tired but i must continue to fight, until the end of this week. woot. new year already. my mid term break. time to pia projects and study for my open book geog test. have a super bad feeling.

well, i'm happy coz been seeing pple i love lately. sooo.. my determination to be more initiative seems to be doing better... :)

ive changed my blogskin again! the other one keep exceeding bandwidth. i'm like really stopid with these html and com stuff. so i have to keep changing. -.- it takes me hours to find a skin that i like man. but really amazed at how smart these pple are with their codes andn brushes and photoshop, blah blah.

went far east both fridae and sat! helped to be fashion consultant to my jolene darling. keke. nice daddy gave us both money to shop! my fav activity! jolene darling look cute lor! i jus barged into the shops and go 'this this this', or 'no no no'. speed shop. but my legs really wan break. and that meanie, sae i moood spoiler. 10plus at orchard ok wat! considering i out since 830am!

went with jing darling on sat.. guys fashion.. hmm not really much choices ar. its either too gay or too formal wear here n there all the same thing. haha. but darling wear wat also cute and handsome! so nvm. i'll take pics during cny! so can see the stuff that ive shopped. keke.

went to vodaskin

my sis did the blue light treatment. $25, 30 min. hmm her pimples smaller and less redder. maybe she continue (that is if she has the $$). i did the all round eyes therapy. $25, 20 mins. hmmm, my panda eyes has long hist, so i really didnt expect it will be totally cleared. but ya. eyes not so puffy. :)

did a video with jing for joey's farewell present. hehe. so excited. cant wait for him to see it. nice of clement, for once. hahaha. but i simply cannot take it. NG so many times man. i dun even know wat to say. the result was a super lame video.

ok, whos cuter?



hahaa. i forced her (nadine- my tuitee!) to take. so cute hor. both cute laaa.. *shy*

totally love the lyrics of my blog song..

专属天使

Singapore wins the Asean Football Championship!

had a real busy week. insufficient slp. i really wanted to give up.. i jus cant take those 10am lessons anymore!!! but plenty of things to look forward... so cannot. and i persevered. only to realise that weekends are really short. and its the beginning of another week again. SIGH!

gpals met! if only for a short while, for lunch. actually most of the time was looking at bras. jeez, gers...

yest, i celebrated one of my closest,bestest male fren 21st birthday. we dun meet often as a group, but i cherish these bunch of frens alot. and it still amazes me everytime i realise that we've known each other for 8 years.. and been frens ever since. this year, plenty of 21st birthdays. everyone growing older. presents presents! hope gary likes his. i know he must!



gary with my another guy best fren, willie! both small small eyes one. like me! HAHA.
gosh. i think pat's eyes the biggest among us all!! jus look at the pic later..




amazin, his mum remembers us. the last time i saw her was at least 5 years ago? and amazin, his dad and mum clubbed with us. and his lovely girlfren was there too. haha her name is grace! they so cute! green together.. hehe.






well, went dbl o after tt. dun feel like elaborating much on it.

in a bad mood. hate it when pple i love are upset. thank goodness, i have a small heart, not many pple in there. if not, i'll have never ending bad moods...