11th september

2 more days to 3 years and 2 months.

i miss u already,
u know anot.

i think of the long weekends that i planned to slp in with u and spend time with u.
all gone.

i was jus getting my life back together.
bf, job, friends, family abit more stable.
then it had to crash
this balance that i tried to hold..

and though i dun always receive phone calls from you, my phone is now especially silent.
though when i meet u, ure always doing ur work and not really pei-ing me, but my days ahead now still feel empty.
i miss the times at tpy. i miss the room. i miss having to pack ur comics, ur clothes.
i miss kapo-ing what things u lack or gonna use finnish and then buying them for u.
i miss seeing ur face in the morning before i go work.
i miss ur cooking for me.
i miss sitting in ur car..
i miss calling u after i finish work..
i miss ur occassional massages.

but i'm so angry and hurt. because i cant do anything about it.
all i can do is wait.
ur footprint in my heart and life.. is so huge..

i really hope fate on our side.