adv of being single:

u get to go out with many guys. u still get to choose. no complicated break ups, emotional rollercoaster ride. dun have to report wherever u go or who u with. dun need to think about how to "maintain" a relashp. flirt all u want. wear wat u like.

but single is not all that good. sometimes u wanan see the same face everyday. i believe thats called security. sometimes u want to have someone special, that u know u can count on. u noe he/she belongs to u.

nothing is wrong with me. jus thinking about how complicated relashps are? alot of effort is needed. alot of thinking. decision-making. other people are involved. u are involved. feelings are involved. might do things that i regret, yet i cant seem to correct. or maybe the pt is whether i want to correct it anot.

damn tired. 2 hours slp. tuition. go out. suddenly i feel like i have too much life. i need to calm down. wah. but yest nearly sia got fight. with a few malays. all the pushing n stuff. thats the sucky part about clubbing., besides the smoke. the drunkards. those "ka you" wan. damn them. its like we go clubbing purposely to make ourselves feel irritated huh? coz knowing that there will be such ppple. we still go. haha. well anywae. the gerfren was damn fierce lor. the guy push and stare stare. the ger also push. start screaming vulgarities, ask us to go out and settle. something like tt lah. mad. i really think they got nothing to do.. not being a racist jus saying wat i saw. anywae. had fun. drank more than usual. i should really stop this unhealthy lifestyle. before i get addicted. its damn addictive. coz u go there n dance. u feel like u can jus dance ur worries away. time pass damn fast. n jus when u enjoyin, its time to go home. so that motivates u to go again the next time. thanks ah kor for ur bdae gift. hehee.

i gonna nua. until wed. hopefully i can go pat house to nua also. :(
i am in a fix again. hai. i always stab myself wan leh. WHY!!!!!! can someone teach me how to stop being such a irritating person.