yup. cfm. i was being deleted as a fren. haha most prob blocked in msn too. hahaa. u may think i am making a big fuss out of this. hmm maybe i am. like pat say. to forget the past. but if u really can forget it... does it mean that it never meant anything to u? even though i might hate the person now, or no feelings. but it doesn mean that i should jus allow the person to DELETE me away from his life rite? i make sense rite. this has never happened to me before so forgive. i'll take sometime to absorb this fact. well the fella seems happie. shall not view his profile since he purposely dun wan me to do so. anywae. u can delete i also can delete. haha. *blood starts to boil* coward. always avoiding this n that. ass.

i am happy too. jus maybe a few hiccups here n there recently. but i'll get over it. somethings i wanna say. but darent sae. coz i dun wanna seem pushy or despo. yet. no initiative. no action. no reaction. its all the ego man.

i almost forgot bout the wanping stuff. thank goodness i with py. then she can remind me. tsk tsk. its starting. the pressure of this event gonna come soon.

27th coming soon. hai. dooms day. i really cant believe i getting my results. raffles place never call. 29th is the supposed work dae. PLS CALL!

in dilemma now. should i go out or jus entertain myself? or should i stay home and save the money? maybe i should try sleeping earli. deadlines to meet. need go lib soon.


damn it. my back achin. duno where also. the waist there or something. i cant walk properly sia. kurts going to melbourne!!!! hahaa. so when he saw me light up. hahaa he immed knew wat i had in mind. free lodging and free tour guide. hehehehehee. looks like my andy and i will be reunited!
but first. i need to save save save. ade. u can do it. GAMBATTE NE!

super bored and pissed. i wanted this life. then now wat happen? go out lah go out somemore. now no job. really irritated with myself. why couldnt i be abit more mature and responsible? fuck. jus now kenna scolded for nothing. its not even my bloody fault. ive been trying to do my part liao rite. what more they want. jus not earning money and seem very dependent wat. n maybe i suck at my studies. n maybe i damn fat eating away all the food. and. maybe.. i'm jus useless. hahaa conclusion. ok. i deserve to be scolded. ive really learnt my lesson. LEARNT IT. next time i will jus CHIIIOOOOONNNG for jobs. heck liao. i noe. coz near my bdae. hai. thats why i so. self-indulgent. huo gai. puis.