hmm. somethings bugging me for a few days. this thing bugs me eeevverytime during my holidays. i might say things that u think are not true or that u might wanna debate me or i might regret. but seriously, since ive started, i think i should jus say wat i feel. of coz. i wil be reasonable ok.

well, maybe its retribution. for the way i treat pple. i try to be nice to everyone. haha pat might call this act nice. bleahs. but i try. of coz there are somethings that i regret, but i have to live with them. they serve as a reminder what i should never do again and how i should appreciate the pple around me more. okies. back to topic.

since everyone in gpals is so busy. i decided to book everyone 2 weeks earlier. 19th to 23rd. jus tell me when u free rite. then py and me can tell our bosses we cant work on that day. i wanted to do something. but, then i realise its a fridae. so maybe u all work or wat. earliest we can meet is 6pm. ok. qi suggest 85, long time no go le. but i think i wanna go to the suntec hongkong restaurant thingy. seriously, its not whether we hor, eventually meet. coz we will. hahahaha. grace bdae rite? its like since my bdae until now. ive not seen the 5 of us gather. n its weird. considering its our holidaes. dun meet now meet when? seriously, issit really gpals anot. i think, part is becoz i am impatient i guess. i would like pple to ans me asap. n its the effort lor. so nobody misses gpals coz nobody bothers. thats the feeling i get. being in a gers grp, i seriously tot things will be different. i dun mind, havin impromptu gatherings but i still would like to have all 5 meet occasionally, esp when its the holidaes bah. coz when sch starts, everyone even more busy. schedules even more different. jing told me that eveyrone is like tt de, and that i expect too much. really? i hope someone argue with me on this. i rather we argue coz i need to hear ur views. i wanna noe why this happens every holidae. pple go missing, pple too busy to even meet for a drink.

i'm sorry grace, i noe u super busy. with ur job and ur tuition kids. but.. hai.

we all have different priorities in life. n i try to understand everyone priorities. and i hope pple understand mine. simple rite? sad to sae. there will always be someone "last on the list". where is gpals on ur list? how i wish i can put everyone as equal but its impossible and i jus have to live with me being last on someone else list. for those top few i am willing to let my life revolve arund them. becoz they are my loved ones. so no matter how busy i am. i gonna squeeze some time. coz when i meet them i become happie, tired or wat i also dun care. n i am willing to let my life revolve around gpals as much as i can. to the limit. coz its rare that we can meet. no worries. whether u all see it or not. its the last time i am bloggin this. i appreciate pple who appreciate me. n when i put in effort i think the other party should too. if it doeesn happen. maybe its not wat i think it is.

yeah!!! my lappy coming tml! 12-5.. woooOHoOOoo. wanted to squeeze sometime out todae. but .. nvm. should be go out n enjoy. not keep thinking hav to go home. :)

randomness can be fun.

maybe i am jus too free. i shold get myself to be busy. then i wun have time to be bothered with u all. i guess thats how things work around here from the way i see it. ( i'm sorry. its mean i noe. but thats what i feel)

i tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it.