i didnt want to post something so soon, coz no pictures! ive resorted to someting uncreative like posting youtube stuff so as to have something multimedia-ish on my blog. bleaahhhs. dun care. todae is words. unless u wana pics of my ugly face (ugly eyebrows, ugly eyecircles, ugly eyebags, chapped lips, need i sae more!?) and my beloved papers?

i'm so excited that darling is goonna POP in just 6 more days! i sound like he is already ord-ing. but wth. since we both have 'holidaes' together, its jus great. been having random tots.

do u pple think alot or do reflections? i think i'm someone who does alot of that, sensitive, paranoid, whatever u sae man.. i seem to have this habit of recapping my whole dae or some troubles that i have before i go to slp. i think when i'm bathing, i think when i'm in the bus, mrt, nothing to do, i'll just think. like when theres a debate in class, some pts pr some doubts that i haf, i'll still be thinking bout it at nite! then i'll go, "ya, should have argued this way.."

the past few wweeks have been quite eventful for me (my brain actually). many things to think about. one of my fren's nick struck me too: Ask not what i can do for you, ask what you can do for me. but me, someone who lacks initiative, i actually constantly remind myself: ask not what others can do for me, but what i can do for others. i try my very best when i self-reflect to take note of certain things which i should have done/said better. i'm not a perfectionist, but i jus want to strive to be better.

being someone who lacks initiative has always been a weakness of mine. major. ive lost frens coz of that and felt and still feel isolated becos of that too. i dun tok on the fone regularly,i dun even call my frens unless i see the pt , just ask pat ( my 8-year old best fren). i noe what u gonna say, then start calling la! but its difficult, coz its just not me! n my close frens, knowing that, they have to take the initiative to call me ( i love u all for this) and i dun even get calls most of the time becus pple think adeline is jus not a fone-person. thefore, ive decided to accept the fact, that its difficult for me to start, its not like i dun care a damn bout my frens lives. i do it tru other means. msn,sms, ive never rejected my fren calls to go out unless something major or dates clash.

its difficult for me to change becoz i just feel so unnatural, like purposely. n its weird when the conversations jus dont click. n my life jus too boring i guess. mayb i just dun wan to put myself in that situation with my fren. its not like i'm antisocial and cant converse, i can easily tok for hours. but, i cant start it.

so thanks eveyrone for putting up with this weakness of mine, i'll try my best to make it up in other ways. and maybe call ya all sometimes. :) in the meanwhile everyone just take care and continue to tahan me ya.

!!! AHHAHAH!. i am soO SOosoo happi! i cant imagine. the end of next week. END OF EXAMS. damn it. i must plan plan how to enjoy my holidaes. SHOPPING! CHALET! BEACH! NOVELS! TV! MOVIES! BEAUTIFY! EXERCISE! LOVE!

anywae, i am tutorin the 2 gers not becos of money only kies? they need it, esp nadine, whos abit notti but guai. so she needs abit more time. n her foundation is weaker than xinyi. i make myself sound so materialistic sometimes i even believe myself.