hmm. everyone likes to compare. compare results, compare money, compare boyfriends, compare life. we either feel better or worse after comparing. its something that we cant avoid. but ive learnt something about making comparisons.

its never enough. nobody is ever good enough.

uve got A, someone will get A+. uve got a rich bf, someone will have a richer one.
so what if u are the one who is better off? do u feel happie that u noe someone who is worse off than u?

i admit, when i hear pple getting better grades than me, bf sweeter than my darling, i'll be envious of them. jealous even. but this jus makes me sad. and why should i be? i was perfectly contented with my life till i made that particular comparison.

in the midst of studying for my sickening geog test tml, i think of such nonsense. haha i just wanna share with my close frens some of my tots. i feel better and like ive achieved something if someone heed my advice and feels better too.

pple who we love, we cherish and appreciate. but no doubt, they will be the ones we expect most out of. its a paradox. we want them to prove to us that they are worthy of our love and that they truly are the best.

ive looked back, and seen my childishness in my endless wants. made pple i love upset. i'm selfish, and i believe i am entitled to (just like u are), but we should be aware of our limits. when's the limit? when pple who u love are struggling to catch up with ur limitless wants. when u see ur loved ones upset that they cant give u something you want. esp when u know they have tried their best, but u just want more.

when u feel u are entitled and u should have this and that, pls think carefully my dear frens, do u deserve it?

argh. jus some random tots, coz of things happening lately.
time to slp.

i love u dear. can never say enough no matter how many times i say it. :)

tonight i find myself kneeling by the bed to pray,
i havent done this in a long time,
so i dunno what to say.
but lord,i feel so small sometimes,
in this big old place,
yeah i know theres more impt things,
but dont forget to remember me..