cant believe i travelled 2 hours to sembawang because i feel like it. :X
wonder if it was the right move..
I NEED TO keep a clear head.
but i can feel abit of the teaching thing coming back again.. thanks to u..

i swear this is gonna be the last few times.. i'm gonna tok about it..

the past adeline.. pre-jingyuan adeline.. always built a wall. between whoever she likes and herself. she was scared of committing and getting hurt. coz she knows herself well. she will get hurt. so that pre-jingyuan adeline hurt pple. or even when she was dumped by that one little ass.. it didnt take her long to recover. sure she was upset because of the way it ended. she did think all men were assholes. but she never really became too bothered about it. now hes jus known as the asshole who dumped her.

gone on plenty of dates and jingyuan showed up. he didnt noe i guess. but once he showed up.. everyone started to disappear.. i was quite sure that we were gonna be together.. had to ask myself.. i hurt him previously.. do i wan to commit this time? cannot be too selfish? then i told myself yes. think i'm ready. so i smashed that stupid wall. because he is yeo jingyuan. because i believed in him. because i think. 2nd try means we really got fate and i should stop fooling around. because i can see he really loves me..

and now i feel stupid.. and i think its time to build back the wall.. because i cant afford to become like tt anymore. lousy timing again i guess. :)
i wonder how many lousy timings can we afford. and how many more heartaches i can endure.

move on adeline move on.
will reconsider the teaching thing again. because really fed up with the complains that my tuitees give about their teacher. my sis also complain... hahha.

tomorrow meeting pearlyn!! :) i missed my siao zarbo! good to noe she still as crazy as ever. haha. maybe take pics with her tml... jus have to think of where to eat now. and mus ask food expert. PAT. haha

anyway, think i stubborn. stubborn to the extent that pple think i childish.
not indept. immature. maybe thats why.. he .. aha..

tired..