i was disappointed to find out. angry and hurt.
but stilll.. i cant do it. every part of me ached. but i cant.

and i jus needed someone to be there.. dont need to hear much. dun even need to know what happened. but jus get out of my hse..

i really dunno how much stronger i can be..
how much more time i can give.
i jus dun wan any more lies, they hurt me the most. they make me think alot of negative stuff. about u. about us.
and the more i wan to give up.
i'm selfish i know. i also dun wan to pressure u.
i dun wan to be the source of ur stress and unhappiness.. :)

hmm ok. away from topic...
some pictures finally!

after val and i watched departures. and walk about peoples park and had dessert!
i walked maui with val!
i should take pictures of maui next time too




then met pat at iluma on monday! :)
they were giving out flyers.. its at the 5th floor. on the right of the arcade. 20% discount.




alright man. going present huntin later with lijia hehe. shes so nice. last min jio her she will try to make it.
trying to make these few days abit packed. anyway weekends are the times when my friends are free. :)

cheers to man utd for winning the arse! they could have scored more!!!

i do think some pple need to go through somethings alone. like grace said.
i dunno which one am i. because there are times i do need pple to jus complain complain and cry to. but i feel that its really not nice to disturb pple with the same problem all over again. the friends jus become very weary. and everyone have their own problems.
so i've come to jus accept that sometimes we can bawl everything out to our friends, when they have the time. and its definitely good that there are friends to jus listen. or jus willing to sit there with u. no need say anything. jus hug u and let u cry. or jus have a drink.

but i also enjoy the times where i can jus be by myself. think about things. write them down somewhere and sort things out. my very very impt alone time. maybe not working. so really have too much alone time.
my apologies to pple who i keep disturbing over the past month.

i've had my good days and my bad days. and i thank ya all. for being there in anyday of my life.
there are really times when i think i bother these particular person too much. i jus think i need to go bother someone else. its not you, its jus me. i know the world doesn revolve around me and most of the times, the conclusion is. up to myself. so i really find myself quite irritating too. haha.

anyway, the things i've said. are for YOU.
YOU may feel that ure one of the friends i bothered, or u may be one of the friends who wanted to reach out to me but i didnt react in the way you wanted. but you should also appreciate differences between people, how they listen, how they deal with ur problems and their problems and then appreciate the attention that you have already..