going hk for the weekend.
was really lookin forward to it..
until yesterday.
u and ur bad mood.ur busy. ur space. ur 'alone' time. actually its all fine.
actually i can take it. but why hurt me with ur words. why give me attitude.
how u expect to ignore someone for 2 days before the trip and then expect me to behave like nothing is happening. busy busy la. tired tired la. u everyday slp so late and so little hours. how to not tired. and stress. why cant u jus TELL me nicely. or jus give me a warning.
but dun worry. later i will be strong and smile.
its either u wanna tok to me about this, i already let u know what i think u can do. but i also learn my lesson already.

u always wonder why i dun dare to call u.. dun dare to msg you.. dun feel secure.. dun think ure trying. its because of days like these. where even a phone call from me and u sound like i trying to choke u. one day u will understand. for our sake, i hope one day u will understand.

i dun owe u anything u noe. if u have any problem with other pple. dun take it out on me. if u have problem with me. tell me. let me know. u dun like me to ask questions, but i really alot of bloody questions. i can cut down on those bo liao one. but then again, u dun do things that make me question lor. its a cycle. for my part, i will try to stop it. what about YOU?

went to see my grandma in hospital. bacteria in her blood.
also visited another of my relative. diabetes. have to cut off her toe.
its must be so heart wrenching for people who have diabetes.
mus cut here and there.. slowly. painful.
i almost wanted to cry but i think she doesn need me to be like that. especially when i can see shes upset too. and my poor grandma kenna poke and poke in the hand until swollen and blueblack all over. :(

god.. pls let them all live for many more years.
update when i come back ba.