3rd day at work!

hmmm so far.. been not doing much. orientation. and dun have my desk. so look abit pathetic sometimes. but actually quite abit of stuff to do. physical as well as mental la.
these few days abit more physical coz move things, walk here and there.
think today more fruitful. i actually visited the rental flats.
and get to talk to the elderly abit.

we visited those who are living alone. the first guy had gout and come back from hospital. he has a malay name. but he is soooo fluent in hokkien. ya. but his fly was unzipped. and he not very hygienic so theres a smell.. but he dun understand english ma. so the bags and bags of medicine.. we have to cut and help him to differentiate the times taken, timing to take. w/o pple to volunteer or social workers or companies like us.. i think this pple will jus die alone and body rot also dunno people will know anot..

another guy is blind.. and can see very happy to see us.. and was like singing singing hokkien song. coz the other 2 colleagues i was with.. leaving.. then he upset.. he ask them 'why u leaving?' , 'u angry with me ar?' and he keep asking.. u really leaving ar?
and i think my colleagues and him sort of have a misunderstanding before.. and he was like.. 'is it because that time i ask u to do this for me?' and hes like

they also have feelings..
even though they old and deemed as useless but they still have feelings.
the working world might have deserted them, but they still belong to society..

hais.. and i'm at a loss.
and i gonna be freaking damn busy.

i wanna make things clear first.
i dun mind the little slp.
bus 26 goes to my work place.

weird. person that i wan concern from.. nothing. person that i think shouldnt be involved.. want themselves to be involved. hais.

and omg. pls i dun have to report to u. if i bad mood, i dun wanna tell u.. u cant force it out lehs. and who cares who i tell first? as in. i have the right who i tell my troubles too.

everyone.. stop quarrelling already. stop it. why cant we look at the person's good pts. magnify the good pts and minimise the bad pts. appreciate the good, focus on it. i'm trying. very hard to do this.. but certain bad things.. has happened already. i need alot alot alot of strength. really need alot.

pls dun make it any worse for me already.



一厢情愿.