hahaa i decided to delete... to prevent quarrels or watever unnecessary things.

i think ive been unlucky recently. weird things keep happening..


does hiding or not talking about things make it go away?
does behaving like it doesn matter to me means i wont feel the pain?

ive learnt to be not so impulsive on certain things, not to jump into conclusions.
but sometimes the feeling is jus there. i cant pretend its not there, but i can mask it. i can only distract myself, or pretend everyting is fine.

because sometimes whats the pt of saying it out?
if u really think in my place, you will know.

maybe i'm expecting too much. and i'm very unsure about which step to take.
do i say.. or do i not.
sometimes i say because i feel that u should know, i wan u to know that doing this hurts me.
yet i offend certain people. or people think ive changed because of this this this.. but nobody reflects. eh "maybe i like to be treated this way but she doesn?"

when we wan to treat someone nice is to give that person what he/she wants.
i'm trying .. but even niceness has a limit.
to me, if certain thing is not impt to me, or does not affect WHO i am. i'm willing to change or be rid of that thing/person.

who should be the first one to take that step?