Being a pessimist, I start as a failure.
Almost everything I do, I willfail.
I would like to become an optimist, but then need to change mindset and need things to actually start being good arnd me.
Then again, I'm stupid plus mostly suayed.
So even if I'm an optimist.
I will still fail.Things are starting to crumble.
I'm starting to crumble..
Life is jus a slow and painful death.Full of misery, full of fakeness, full of misunderstandings, full of wars..
I wish to give my life to somebody who actually wishes to live longer
I bought insurance for myself alrrady. Hopefully can help my family in some way.

N I tot things were getting better.
I mus have been dreaming ..I still can't pls everyone, no matter how much I try.
I still get misunderstood.I still stand alone here
I still have absolutely nobody to turn to.
Still nothing The only people I can be real to, I can't be real.
I don't feel alive..

Help..I wanted to work in this sector to hrlp people.
I tot I was helping these people. So I can feel alive.
So I can believe life is not jus about dollars and cents. So I can believe that there are actually people who will appreciate ..So I can believe in something.
But everyone is so selfish
Everyone is so annoying
Everyone is jus out to get each other

I tot we were going to be together for a long time..
For real this time.
Maybe I'm jus not lucky to be loved by someone.
Maybe I need to take out my heart and freeze it.
Maybe I need to go for lessons to teach myself to love people.
Apparently what I know is ALL wrong
What I do is always wrong
What I never do is also wrong
What I say wrong
Never say also wrong
Maybe I'm jus wrong


Wrong to be here