eee i dun like this weekend.

had a good talk with my dear pat.
miss her so much.
and i managed to get my drink! woooots.
if not for my bloody ulcers would be very happy to down more.
dont know why
think tense ba nowadays.
and its good to have people to talk to nowadays.
u know like 'i talk, and u listen, u talk and i listen?'

most of the time conversations.. they jus get cut in between. and some people jus pour cold water before you even get to the main pt. most people cant be bothered to stand in the person's pt of view and think.

NOBODY REALLY LISTENS nowadays right?
which is why..
sometimes i dont bother talking at all
or
i jus be funny the whole night
and i rather listen to other people.
cause
theres no pt

anyway i hope darling wins 1st prize in 4d! cause i have a shaaareee! :D
and im sick and tired of looking at this office, and entertaining all these ungrateful people
they are turning me into an evil person, so i need a break from all of them.
to jus believe in humans again
18 more days :D
been trying not to buy things. because theres HK.
13th is mummy and daughter day out :)

im very uncomfortable and upset.
because i dunno why i need to face these things.
why am i being put through all these tests?
and yes, i need to be strong.
i need to have faith.
i need to be committed.
no question about it.. nobody has questions about it.
except for me.
i have lots of questions

i dont like to be last.
nobody likes to be.
but i especially dont like to be placed behind people who i think DONT deserve to be in front of me.


im really a nice person. genuine most of the times.
of course, i admit to the whole freaking world, im selfish at times.
i try to escape from my responsibilities from time to time. im stupid and blur.
i dont ALWAYS think from other people pt of view.

but im definitely not superwoman.
i can put on a smile and hang out with eeveryone.
but then, whos ready to listen to my worries and troubles?
and i mean listen.

so turn one whole big round. realise i haven really said wat i wanted to say. hahaa.

anyway im very excited for pat and gary. hehee
wish them successs
im still hoping to work with pat one day!!! PATRICIA LIM XIN HUI, earn more $$, i also wan to save up and do biz liao!