shit.
i did something wrong again.
organise a talk by another organisation and have to last min cancel
because i forgot that the aunties have another activity elsewhere
sometimes i jus wanna be nice.
give them different things, beneficial things beacuse other people say its good
so whyyyyy does it blow up at my face?
and how come pass through so many hands, nobody mentioned that theres something else!?!?!?

but its my fault la.
if i know i dun organisee.
its because i see my colleagues everyday jus waiting for this centre to rot and die and close down


hmmm im reading mitch albom latest, Have a Little Faith. most of the book is filled with conversations between the Reb and Mitch
some stuff that i would like to share:
about war..

Mitch: But so many people wage wars in God's name.
Reb: Mitch, God does not want such killing to go on.
Mitch: Then why hasnt it stopped?
Reb: Because men does.

and its true.
its something we dont think about. especially those involved in the wars.

about happiness....

mitch: What makes a man happy?
Reb: Having more does not keep you from wanting more. And if you always want more- to be richer, more beautiful, more well known - you are missing the bigger picture, and i can tell you from experience, happiness will never ever come.
Reb: Be satisfied, be grateful
mitch: That's it?
Reb: For what you have, for the love you receive. And for what God has given you.
Mitch: That's it?
Reb (sighing deeply): That's it

haha i laughed at this.
the Reb just said, be grateful and statisfied.
but we always think happiness as having this and that, a long list of neverending wants/needs.
and so he sighed at Mitch for asking 'that's it?'
because nobody can believe that happiness is just so simple.


about death...

Mitch: What do people fear most about death?
Reb: Well, for one thing, what happens next? Where do we go? is it what we imagined?
Mitch: That's big.
Reb: Yes. But there's something else.
Mitch: What else?
Reb: Being forgotten.

about marriage...

Reb: i think people expect too much from marriage today. They expect perfection. Every moment should be bliss. That's TV or movies. But that is not the human experience. The trick is twhen things aren't so great, you don't junk the whole thing. it's okay to have an argument. It's okay that the other one nudges you a little, bothers you a little. It's part of being close to someone. But the joy you get from the same closeness - when you watch your children, when you wake up and smile at each other - that, as our tradition teaches us, is a blessing. People forget that.
Mitch: Why do they forget it?
Reb: Because the word 'commitment' has lost its meaning...... A committed person was someone to be admired. He was loyal and steady. Now a commitment is something you avoid. You don't wan to tie yourself down.... But real commitment? That requires staying power - in faith and in marriage.
Mitch: And if you don't commit?
Reb:Your choice. But you miss what's on the other side.
Mitch: Whats on the other side?
Reb: Ah, a happiness you cannot find alone.

... thats all for now. hahaa still wanna continue to read :P

but its very insightful.
and some of the stuff i really believe in them
jus maybe i think its hard to find someone who believes in the same things as i do